I was 6 years old, when I first looked up at the stars and something inside me stirred a question that would never be fully answered, but would drive me to explore every corner of the universe. Although, I was reckless and curious about all the things around me, that didn't stop me to ask questions to the elders-- MOM, I asked the most embarrassing, and most nonsense things to her, fortunately, she isn't tired answering most of it, of course, to feed my curious little brain.
When I got older I thought to myself, "enough!", I was making people around me "annoyed" or "uncomfortable", so much to the point they started to leave me and give me weird looks-- not that I care, but, for me to help myself get away in that embarrassing stage. Then, high school year comes-- Although, I am still adjusting to my environment. I'm still the curious, noisy girl that befriended everybody. that loud, cheerful girl-- Suddenly, that spark in me flickered and died.
I found myself stuck in the cage I made--not to suffer, but to isolate myself from being the loud girl in the room. I try to find new chance of hope in my phone, downloading every 'friend app finder'-- internationally, I found myself loving people in different countries, not romantically, but platonically, they help me grow to be myself again-- knowing I can be as loud as I want through chat and they wouldn't leave but to cheer me up. although, I have online friends I can never leave my friend beside me that guided me throughout my high school days and counting.
HiI Rhijana!! Always remeber you have friends like us that will alway stay by your side no matter what happens. Being a person that talks a lot can not alway mean its a bad thing. I love when you always talk about yourself or things in general.
ReplyDeleteThis was a nice read, it shows how much you’ve grown! :)
ReplyDeleteDon't be afraid to ask a million questions, because everything has an answer. It's just who you are, and there's no need to be embarrassed about it. Real friends will stay by your side even if you ask them every question in the universe.
ReplyDeleteHalloo Rhijana! Always remember that we are always here for you, and i will always stay by your side. I'm so proud of you and the love you put in everything you do.
ReplyDeletewell, there's more to this life that your having so be prepared for it.
ReplyDeleteLife is though but having friends to talk with really lessens the pain
ReplyDeleteYou're capable of more than you realize, continue striving and stay positive!
ReplyDeletewe shouldn't judge our capabilities, there will and always be a time where we can strive in this uncanny life, don't let the truth scare you instead it should be your basis o strive, keep going!
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